Causes of my Chronic Illness (Multiple Chemical Sensitivities)

 

Years of high mold exposure

I moved into my apartment in 2014. It was a perfect little one-bedroom with a washer/dryer hookup and a dining nook that I later blocked off to become my son’s bedroom. Everything was wonderful for the first 2 years. Then I became depressed and filled with anxiety. My social life tanked and my memory got foggy. I started losing my hair and began getting panic attacks. I thought it was all due to being a single mom. I talked to my doctor but they couldn’t advise me what to do because they didn’t live with me. I was given painkillers to relieve my back pain. I started to see a therapist but they all said I seemed normal. I started taking iron pills because I was easily cold and my hair seemed to stay on my scalp with it. However, my bathroom didn’t have a fan for ventilation and I found myself cleaning mold often. I never thought anything of it.


Gas leak in my house

I moved into a house at the end of 2018. It was a fixer-upper and we did a lot of low-budget remodeling to make it more updated before we moved in. We thought that was the beginning of our new life. Three months into living there my relationship was having issues and we were arguing all the time. Then I started having excruciating back pain and headaches. I couldn’t understand what was going on but every time I went into the house I knew something was wrong. After many doctor visits and tests, they still couldn’t figure out what was wrong. So I decided to stay with my mom. My son and I left with my parents and my boyfriend went with his parents. We were not sure why things had gotten so bad. Then we got the house tested and found out there were high levels of mold and my kitchen had a gas leak. That’s why my plants were so quickly dying and my pets all died. Things have gotten better since but my body is still sensitive to a lot of things. We are working on that with detox, exercise, and diet.



Unresolved Trauma

At the same time, I learned some news about my life that was devastating and traumatic on top of the other unresolved trauma that I hadn't processed from my earlier life. I had been suppressing everything for so long and didn't realize that I had no awareness of how my trauma was affecting my internal world and that I was also codependent. I had been repeating patterns in my life that didn't serve me and I was creating chaos in my own life without understanding why. This was probably the biggest problem that was aiding in the physical issues in my life and it was slowly killing me.

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